I don't watch White Collar. I watch Matt Bomer.

This new show on USA, "White Collar," looked like it had a really cool idea. The FBI hires a brilliant white collar criminal to help on cases in exchange for release from jail. They made this deal after he escaped from prison with only four months left in his sentence to chase after his girlfriend who broke up with him from behind the glass.

The concept of the show is great, but one of my friends said that it's kind of drawn out. I agree with that. But kind of like how Chace Crawford, just by being Chace Crawford, makes up for his character on "Gossip Girl" being dull, Matt Bomer's character Neal Caffrey, brilliant, funny, charming, makes the show worth any slow moments. He just does.



Love,
Juliana

3

I just realized what the song 3 by Britney Spears is about. I could never figure out what she was saying after "One, two three." My friend said she's trying to remember what comes after three.

It's been stuck in my head since Saturday. I looked up the lyrics and now I feel stupid for not realizing that.

Nickelodeon Magazine, Please

Sometimes I'll be doing something completely unrelated and be reminded of something from my childhood. I remember this Nick Magazine commercial from 1997 so well. I know all the words to it still. The red head kid looks like Danny Tamberelli.

Waiting for Godot and Equus

Ever heard of the play Equus? It's twisted. Maybe that's just my opinion, a lot of people in my English class actually like it, but I think it's really strange. Not like 1984 strange, either, but like a 17 year old kid whose religion is getting off on horses kind of strange. I don't mind reading it so much just because it's so weird and different that I want to know where it goes, but I don't like it very much. I like things that make me think but not things that make me think about relating horses with orgasms.

We just got done reading a book that I really liked. It's called Waiting for Godot. Most people in my class didn't like this one. My teacher asked how many of us thought it was a brilliant play and only about four people out of 31 raised their hands, including me. It's about these two seemingly homeless guys in post-WWII Europe who do nothing day aafter day but wait for this guy named Godot who never shows up.

I liked it because it left almost everything open to interpretation. Samuel Beckett who wrote it didn't explicitly state anything about the characters or the setting, and we don't know who Godot is or exactly why they want him. The whole thing is an allegory and the meaning of life is a central theme. I really liked it. I did a big oral presentation on it on Monday. It had to be at least 10 minutes long and is one of the most important projects I will do for English all year.

On a kind of unrelated topic, I'm watching "Monk" right now and this episode isn't good. I love the show, but even the murder in this episode is really weak.

Happy Halloween tomorrow! I can believe it's here already. I don't feel like I celebrated it enough.

Love,
Juliana

Why, Juliana?

I can't sleep. I really, really wish I could have gone to sleep hours ago, but I once again am crying over stupid things. I have no real reason to cry. Makes me feel guilty. The more I try to fall asleep, the more I think about it, and the more I think about it, the more I start to go absolutely crazy.

I wish there was someone here who understood me, but if there was someone here, I wouldn't be so sad in the first place.

And it didn't help to write this. I thought it would. Enjoy your unnecessary display of raw emotion because that's pretty much the only point of this.

Love I guess,
Juliana

Zomg the weather

Just note this is the fist and last time I will ever say zomg mainly because I don't know what it means, but I thought adding the Z made it look more like Halloween. You know, like zombie omg. Maybe. Kind of.

I love October, and my gushing about Halloween is becoming like a story that your five-year-old brother tells over and over again and even though you're sick of it, you still acknowledge that it's important to him. The weather here has been a similar experience to sticking your face into the steam over a boiling pot of water. It's October now! This is the beginning of Florida's other season, the one that makes other states jealous while they endure their miserable winters. It finally got cold tonight! I am so happy. Tomorrow we're going to the Halloween store and the pumpkin patch at my old preschool.

Today I went to this water park with my cousins. We had free tickets that expired tomorrow, so we went even though today was the rainy day that precedes a cold front. That place is so gross. The ground is slimy, there's random objects like socks floating in the water, and we saw a little kid standing at the edge of the pool peeing into it.

There are millions of these heavily-tattooed 300-pound people in bikinis and speedos at this place. Not to discriminate against people for their weight or anything, but when your junk's practically falling out of your bathing suit while you're walking, what's going to happen on the slides?

Still, I always have fun with them. In the lazy river that just spins in circles, we attached to each other's tubes and my cousin pulled us around, and random people started connecting to our chain until it was about 10 people long. Haha.

I can't think of any videos to post right now. I'm so tired. I tried to do homework and was too tired so I ended up falling asleep watching "Doctor Who." Good show. Watch it. ^_^

Love,
Juliana

How I really feel

Sometimes when I can't sleep, I think of all the people I know and the one thing I would say to them if I could only say one thing. I kind of wanted to post them without names just to get them out there. So here it goes, it's Hallmark card time.

**I take for granted that you're just a shout across the hall away, but one day I won't see you every day and you don't know how much I'll miss you. You're my best friend and you are going to get in trouble in high school when I text you in the middle of day.

**You make everything seem better than it really is. I hope I grow up to be like you, and I hope my kids have as amazing and patient a mother as I did.

**We don't agree on everything, but in the end, I won't remember how you yelled about chipped nail polish. I will remember how you would color cupcakes with cherries on top in my coloring books, play dollhouse with me, and climb into my little forts even though you didn't fit. Whenever I draw a cupcake, I always put a cherry on top, and when you're no longer around, I'm going to wish you were there to tell me to take off my nail polish.

**I wish I could be as good a friend to you as you are to me, and it makes me feel lucky to know I never can be, no matter how hard I try. I would be a completely different person if I never met you.

**I miss you, and I wish we were still as close as we were before, but maybe we just weren't meant to be best friends forever. You'll still be getting Christmas and birthday cards from me every year for the rest of your life.

**You're wrong. About everything. If you figure it out, hopefully it won't be too late.

**If my boss in the real world is like you, I know not to let him make me as upset as you did.

**I think we're pretty good friends. I don't know why I don't trust you. I have no reason not to, and it makes me feel like a bad person.

**I haven't known you for long, but you've made me think about things that changed who I am in some small way. You made me understand the three people above.

**I used to call you my big sister. I regret not staying as close to you just because I'm too shy to call.

**You're the only one who understood why I hid and cried at that party in 8th grade, and you stayed with me so I wouldn't be alone. I will always remember that.

These are definitely not all of them. These are the people that I see all the time or have been on my mind. I'm sure if you're one of these people, you'll know which one is you.

I kind of wish some of these people would read it just to know how I feel.

Love,
Juliana