How I really feel

Sometimes when I can't sleep, I think of all the people I know and the one thing I would say to them if I could only say one thing. I kind of wanted to post them without names just to get them out there. So here it goes, it's Hallmark card time.

**I take for granted that you're just a shout across the hall away, but one day I won't see you every day and you don't know how much I'll miss you. You're my best friend and you are going to get in trouble in high school when I text you in the middle of day.

**You make everything seem better than it really is. I hope I grow up to be like you, and I hope my kids have as amazing and patient a mother as I did.

**We don't agree on everything, but in the end, I won't remember how you yelled about chipped nail polish. I will remember how you would color cupcakes with cherries on top in my coloring books, play dollhouse with me, and climb into my little forts even though you didn't fit. Whenever I draw a cupcake, I always put a cherry on top, and when you're no longer around, I'm going to wish you were there to tell me to take off my nail polish.

**I wish I could be as good a friend to you as you are to me, and it makes me feel lucky to know I never can be, no matter how hard I try. I would be a completely different person if I never met you.

**I miss you, and I wish we were still as close as we were before, but maybe we just weren't meant to be best friends forever. You'll still be getting Christmas and birthday cards from me every year for the rest of your life.

**You're wrong. About everything. If you figure it out, hopefully it won't be too late.

**If my boss in the real world is like you, I know not to let him make me as upset as you did.

**I think we're pretty good friends. I don't know why I don't trust you. I have no reason not to, and it makes me feel like a bad person.

**I haven't known you for long, but you've made me think about things that changed who I am in some small way. You made me understand the three people above.

**I used to call you my big sister. I regret not staying as close to you just because I'm too shy to call.

**You're the only one who understood why I hid and cried at that party in 8th grade, and you stayed with me so I wouldn't be alone. I will always remember that.

These are definitely not all of them. These are the people that I see all the time or have been on my mind. I'm sure if you're one of these people, you'll know which one is you.

I kind of wish some of these people would read it just to know how I feel.

Love,
Juliana